"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." — Marilyn Monroe
This has been my mantra lately. Kinda goes hand-in-hand with the "grass is greener on the other side idea", but I think it is even more than that. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in how things should be, or where we should be at a certain time in life that we forget it's okay to not be on the same page or path as someone else. If I had kept with the path I was on and continued to be brainwashed by the fact that I should be on that path, I would never know what better things would come my way. Point blank, I would have settled. This is not to say that no one can ever have true happiness at any given point in their life; I do believe that it exists, but I am not naive to the fact that it doesn't always happen when you want it to or think it should.
Lies are hard business. It is difficult to sometimes decide how truthful you should be. To what extent do you stay honest with yourself and others before it actually becomes debilitating on the relationship.? This is not to say that I condone being dishonest, but at the end of the day I would have to ask myself if I would rather someone say to me, "no, I don't want to hang out with you because I don't like you", or "I have to wash my hair tonight". Which one is worse, and how do you decide? In the past I lied to myself allowing myself to believe that I was truly happy and that things were the way they should be. I find it very conflicting that I could lie to myself, but sometimes it happens. It then becomes a hard task of figuring out how to be true to yourself and stop lying.
Lastly, I have been in enough bad "things" to know a good one when it falls into my lap. I have always had the personality of wanting what I want, when I want it, and doing practically anything (within reason and legality) to get it. This can be best demonstrated by moving all of the (monstrously heavy) furniture in my bedroom around at 2:00 AM simply because I want it changed, and no, I don't want to wait for someone to help me. Bad example of a life changing moment, but you get my drift. But at what point do I say, "okay, why does this have to happen now" ? When can I just let things fall into my lap instead of looking for it? I feel like I just answered my own question because I have been doing that here recently, and I decided that it scares the bejesus out of me. It is exciting- don't get me wrong- but it just isn't the way my brain works.
All in all, I do believe that everything happens for a reason, however, I just wish I knew what those reasons were. I guess life is more exciting not knowing, but I hate surprises.
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